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Name: David
Country: United States
State: California
Metro: Berkeley
Gender: Male
Interests: Everything! I'm as well-rounded as Elmer Fudd's head!
Expertise: Being authentically generic, a genuine imitation...
Occupation: Education/training
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AIM:  Leftyguy1186
Member Since:
8/5/2002
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| Wow, 2007. Wow.
How did all that happen?
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| There are certain thoughts that I have, but I'm often ok even though those thoughts may be troubling. The reason is that most of the thoughts are speculative in nature and so are ambiguous as to whether or not they are true...although the idea of these thoughts being true scares me quite a lot.
So when I hear the same thoughts from you, it chills my soul because all of a sudden the thoughts that I had aren't just speculation anymore. It's not just me thinking something up that may or may not be true...it's another person confirming that my thoughts are valid and are actually somewhat, if not all, true.
All of a sudden, I believe all those dark thoughts because someone else has realized them for me. I guess the worst of me is more apparent than I thought because other people notice the things I hoped so much they wouldn't notice...
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| OK so this coming semester, I've got a lot of stuff on my plate, and I already know I'm gonna be spread pretty thin. Here's the list:
1) 6 classes / 19 units (3 chem classes, stats & 2 music classes)
2) Cal Band
3) Possibly a CalSO coordinator
4) Friends
5) My Daisy
6) Pil Orgs
7) FEC
Now here's how I'll try to handle all of this: I'll probably drop one of my chemistry classes because I just don't need to take all those classes right now. But I'm not about to give up my other activities for school, so if I get a C in one of my classes, it will still have been worth it to me.
Cal Band takes up a huge amount of time by nature, but I'll just be careful not to go to every single extra event. I'll just be a regular Joe Bandsman, just showing up to rehearsals and the games.
Hopefully, I'll get the job as a CalSO coordinator, and there's no cutting corners with that...I'll just have to get the time management thing down and I have a feeling I'll be working odd hours for that.
Friends and My Daisy...well that will be a delicate balance that I'll try to keep. Although, I can already feel where my priorities are with that. And you know what? I don't think I'm wrong in thinking that I've had a lot of close friends all my life and I'm very thankful for that...but I have something I've never had before, and it's so exciting and new and it makes me happy in ways my friends never really could. My Daisy is something special to me, and I'm willing to give all the attention I need to give.
I'm not really that much involved with the PilOrgs...during the fall anyway, so I'll just do what I've always done, support anything that I can but only if it works in my schedule, which will be pretty packed. I also want to start getting involved with FEC...because I haven't really volunteered my time for anything in college, and I think I'm ready to start giving back to the Filipino community in the Bay Area. But again, I'm not sure how I'll be able to do that with the 50 other things I want to do.
So in conclusion, I've gotta make things a little easier for myself by cutting a few corners here and there, but the way I have my priorities laid out, two things are gonna take a beating...school and my friendships. Yes, I know that's probably a bad thing, but considering everything I want to experience here at UC Berkeley, including the one thing I've wanted my entire life, that is the cost of having a very rewarding overall college experience.
Besides, I don't plan on going to grad school...what does my GPA matter?
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| i want this to happen, but strangely enough, my friends want it to happen too. maybe it's because when i talk about you, they see how genuinely happy i am, and they want to see me happy. right now, just the thought of you brings a smile to my face and brightens my eyes a little. it's a little pathetic and a bit cheesy, but the way i feel right now, even though nothing has happened yet...well, it truly is the happiest i've ever been, relative to how i usually am of course. you have chased the dark thoughts out of my head and replaced them with bright skies.
and the possibility of it getting even better...it's both exciting and scary.
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